• Andrea Anderson Polk

Are You In A Toxic Relationship?

Updated: Jun 5


Toxic relationships can be tricky and not easily recognized.


As a professional counselor who has spent fifteen years studying the human condition, I recognize groups of symptoms that collectively indicate a predictable yet invisible pattern of unhealthy relationships that lead to unnecessary suffering.


These patterns can deceitfully and subtly erode our careers, ministries, and most intimate relationships, including our relationships with ourselves. The patterns can show up as chronic neglect of self due to consistently taking care of someone else, receiving little or no reciprocation, or saying yes when you really mean no.


Ultimately you find yourself lost, wandering through life with haunting confusion, lingering emptiness, and persistent grief.


Toxic relationships are not only confusing and painful, but they also overtake your life, so you take care of their needs, and ultimately you lose yourself. The relationship becomes your purpose because your life revolves around them and your purpose -desires, hopes, and dreams get tossed to the side.


Are you thinking of a certain relationship that creates a similar cycle of suffering in your life? Perhaps a relationship that once brought you joy is now bringing you hurt, or an already difficult relationship has now become harmful.


Here are ten questions to ask yourself to understand if you are in a toxic relationship.


  1. Is there someone in your life who tries to monopolize your time and consume your energy?

  2. Is there someone in your life who is more of a taker than a giver and does not give back to you in the same way?

  3. Is there someone in your life who leaves you feeling overwhelmed because your purpose in life revolves around them, and your voice, feelings, and needs are not mutually acknowledged?

  4. Is there someone in your life with whom you cannot have a rational conversation because simple things become very complicated?

  5. Is there someone in your life who leaves you feeling confused and misunderstood, but you cannot put your finger on exactly how or why?

  6. Is there someone in your life who you feel manipulates you, and your gut tells you something is not right?

  7. Is there someone in your life for whom you feel responsible carrying the emotional weight of the relationship?

  8. Is there someone in your life you feel has been gradually deceiving you over a period of time, and you realize this person is not who you thought they were?

  9. Is there someone in your life who is never satisfied, no matter how much you try to love, help, and please them?

  10. Is there someone in your life who twists the truth and avoids dealing with facts and becomes accusatory, critical, or overly emotional when you try to point it out?


If you can relate to any of these questions, who is the person you are in a toxic relationship with?


If you answered no to all of the questions, you might not be in a toxic relationship. Instead, you might have toxic thinking or self-sabotaging behavior. Alternatively, perhaps you realize you display some toxic behavior in your relationships. Either way, I’ll address that in a future blog post.


Unhealthy relationships with a friend, spouse, mentor, pastor, counselor, sibling, parent, colleague, boss, or significant other can show up unexpectedly.


It can also be a role you adopt based on a situation or event where you have taken on more responsibility than you are capable of handling—roles that allow you to feel needed and loved such as caretaker, the always-on-call person, the fixer, the peacemaker, or the rescuer.


You may find yourself saying things like this: “I’m always the person who . . .” For example, maybe you are the one who always organizes the carpool or schedules all the Zoom calls or does all the household chores or pays the bills, or runs all the errands.


Perhaps your spouse suffers from a chronic illness, and you are going beyond your capacity to take care of them because you believe your needs are not as important as theirs since you are not the one who is sick. You have falsely believed it is your sole responsibility to carry the full load.


Deep down, you feel resentful and have a strong desire to be alone and numb out.


Our choices and associated behaviors offer some form of benefit. We would not be operating in a situation where we are absorbing the responsibility for another person or group of people. If you are the pleaser, caretaker, peacemaker, rescuer, or fixer, ask yourself, What am I getting from this role? Perhaps you feel worthy, important, or needed. Ask yourself, What does this role allow me to avoid? Maybe you avoid painful emotions such as the guilt from saying no and not being there for someone, or you avoid the fear of disappointing people you care about, or you are avoiding your own difficult issues.


Here is an example.


It’s the holiday season. You discuss with your spouse and make the decision that for Christmas this year you are going to vacation alone with your children to enjoy a relaxing change of pace. You want to spend some much-needed fun time together as a family. You want to take a much-needed break from the hustle and bustle to sit on a beach instead of sweating over a hot stove only to engage in the same religious and political conversations year after year.


You finally muster up the courage to tell your extended family you will not be hosting Christmas this year. They respond by trying to guilt-trip you into changing your mind. They are shocked and appalled at your decision.


How can you break this precious family tradition? After all, you have the nice house and space for everyone, and you are centrally located, making it so much easier on everyone.” Your family goes on and on about how their lives are more stressful than yours, how they really need a break. “Why can’t you go on vacation this summer instead of taking time off over the holidays?”


After engaging with them and trying to maintain your boundaries and state your needs, you feel the emotional weight of responsibility to make everyone happy. So you tell your spouse, “Let’s just host one more year.”


These decisions seem minuscule at first, but when the pattern continues in your relationships (chronic caretaking, putting other people’s needs above your own, having no boundaries), you eventually find yourself depleted and joyless, and your sense of self slowly eroded.


Every relationship requires effort, time, energy, and attention, which require fruits of the Spirit such as love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, characteristics found in a healthy relationship. Most importantly, the relationship is mutual because both people are equally attentive to each other’s needs, and they sacrifice and compromise accordingly.


The problem with a toxic relationship is that you deceive yourself into thinking you must do all the work to keep the relationship going, and you continue to nurture, take care of, and feed the toxic relationship, and that becomes your primary responsibility.


The most important thing to remember about a toxic relationship is that they are imposters packaged in a seemingly good and healthy relationship, disguising themselves as the real thing, and mimicking who they think you want them to be.


The issue arises when the other person in the relationship, perpetually uses you, takes advantage of your kindness and openness, and does not reciprocate. Through a deceptive process, you have falsely come to believe you are being empathetic, patient, forgiving, and kind when the truth is that you are not long-suffering.


You are suffering.


If you are coming to the realization you are in a toxic relationship or more than one toxic relationship let me reassure you that you are not alone and there is hope. You may feel stuck in the toxic relationship but there is a strategy you can follow that will help you learn how to do the necessary work to break free and experience healing.


In this blog series, we are going to take a deep dive into all aspects of toxic relationships. In the next post I’ll share the communication tactics that show up in toxic relationships and how you can effectively deal with them.


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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Andrea Anderson Polk is a licensed professional counselor, nationally certified, registered clinical supervisor, and certified professional coach. She has a private practice in Northern Virginia with well over a decade of clinical experience helping hundreds of clients on their healing journey.


She is driven by a deep commitment to uncovering hidden psychological, relational, and spiritual truths that are keeping people stuck so they can be free.

Her book, The Cuckoo Syndrome, is a provocative approach to understanding the human heart and relationships by weaving together her story and those of her clients with science, scripture, and psychology.

Andrea is here to help ambitious women of faith experience healing and breakthrough so they can live each day with peace and purpose. She believes healing happens through relationships. The wounds that occurred in a relationship must be healed in a relationship. Andrea invites you into a life-altering relationship.
Find out more about her services and work with Andrea one-one- by contacting her here.

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Andrea has spent her career studying the human experience and has developed a fascinating analogy that compares cuckoo birds, nature’s master manipulator and imposter, to situations and relationships that leave us feeling drained, confused, lost, and empty. Her new book, The Cuckoo Syndrome, helps us fend off the cuckoos, the unhealthy relationships, toxic thinking, and self-sabotaging behaviors in our life that never truly satisfy the deep longings of our souls and the desires of our hearts. 

Andrea’s clinically proven, innovative method helps us recover the lost pieces of ourselves, discover meaning in suffering, and transform our pain into purpose by teaching us to uncover the truth of who we are and who God is so we can be healed and live free. 

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