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Abusive Relationships: Death by a Thousand Cuts

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Abusive Relationships: Death by a Thousand Cuts

What happens when you are in an abusive relationship? The impact isn’t realized for many people until the damage has been done. As you will see, there are several reasons for this.

Toxic relationships exist on a spectrum, with some forms more damaging and severe than others, such as abuse. Being in a relationship where abuse is present establishes a pattern. It feels like death by a thousand cuts, namely, painful moments that take pieces of your soul and bring that pain into your life again and again.

Abusive relationships leave you with a haunting confusion and immense suffering as they invade your life. They aim to deceive you by disguising their true self to use and take advantage of you. They secretly plan their agenda to harm you and monopolize your time and energy.

An abusive relationship is characterized by a person demonstrating deception, manipulation, and control, where the other person intentionally harms another person. Abuse comes in many forms, including physical, verbal, emotional, sexual, and spiritual.

Abuse can produce a painful, crazy-making feeling in which the person being abused falsely believes they are overreacting, selfish, difficult to be with, too sensitive, ungrateful, and a failure at relationships.

When these lies are repeated often by the abuser, the victim eventually comes to believe them.

People who abuse others can be masters of adopting various disguises to hide their true nature and lure the other person into developing a relationship with them. They are highly intelligent, seeking to exploit weaknesses and vulnerabilities. At the beginning of the relationship, the abusive person can be incredibly kind and charming, but their deceptive nature slowly turns their kindness and eagerness into manipulation and control. It might feel good at first to feel important and special: someone pursues you, shows a strong interest in you and your life, and desires so much of your time. But after a while, you start to feel used, lied to, and taken advantage of.

Ultimately the relationship revolves around them, and they want you all to themselves.

The relationship is not mutual and reciprocal; it is one-sided and draining. You are doing all the work to please them and make them happy, yet they are consistently unsatisfied, and you are wounded in the process.

Deep down, you believe the lie that you are too much or not enough.

The abusive person becomes intense if you try to set boundaries, have a voice, express your needs, and make room for yourself in the relationship. They can shift blame, accuse, and criticize. Over time, you feel severely confused and hurt and become increasingly isolated; your reality alters.

One of the reasons people feel such self-doubt when they are in an abusive relationship is because an abusive person does not manifest abusive tendencies all the time. They can go for long periods without manifesting any abusive behaviors toward you. That is due mainly to the fact that they want to keep you engaged in the relationship.

At times you feel better than anyone else, and you feel lower than anyone else at other times. When they feel triggered by you pushing one of their hidden buttons, you are blindsided and shocked by their toxic behavior when it comes to the surface again. They can tend to quietly keep a record of your wrongs and wait for the opportune moment to punish you.

As I said, the abuse feels like death by a thousand cuts, painful moments that take pieces of your soul and bring that pain into your life again and again.

An abusive relationship slowly erodes your sense of self and thwarts your purpose.

As a counselor, I have worked with many individuals and couples where abuse is present in the relationship. At times, abusers are unlikely to seek counseling because they may not want to believe that anything is wrong with them. If they seek counseling, following through with counseling is also difficult for these individuals because they can become defensive and question the counsel they are given by therapists who want to help.

I have found that these individuals become extremely upset and disappointed when they are not given the answers or the solutions they seek, or the special treatment they deeply believe they deserve. For this reason, it has been my experience that they tend to jump from counselor to counselor, hoping the next advice from a counselor will align with their behavior.

Based on my clinical experience, when they seek counseling, it is more often for other symptoms such as substance abuse, infidelity, a work crisis, depression, or anxiety. The problem occurs in the relationship when the person is unwilling to be accountable for their abusive behavior and do the necessary work to change their actions.

To repair such a relationship, it is essential that a person in an abusive relationship breaks the silence of their suffering and seeks help. The abusive person must be equally willing to pursue help and do the work necessary to overcome their toxic behavior patterns, so they do not continue to hurt their spouse or friend.

In the next post, I’ll share a story of how one abused person was able to identify he was being abused for the first time.

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